...Waiting...

Well the count down is on! I can't believe how fast it has come! It seems so slow everyday, but then at the same time it flys by. I'm getting so excited and having a hard time waiting to hold this little guy. I've been having a lot of false labor over the past few weeks, especially this weekend. I thought for sure we'd have a baby friday night, but no luck. But that's okay, we know it will be soon whenever he comes. We finally got everything ready for his birth and I am looking forward to this new experience of having a baby at home and even though its a bit scary knowing there won't be any pain relief as far as drugs go, I think it's going to be so much more of a spiritual and emotional experience than you get at the hospital and I love that I'll be able to be where I am most comfortable surrounded by people that love me and knowing that my midwife and doula have no one else to help at the time but me.
The other day Parker told me he never wants the baby to come out of my tummy because then I'll be making cakes all the time and feeding the baby and never get to play. Sad huh! I tried to reassure him that I'm not going to be making cakes all the time, I don't plan to start taking on very many orders for quite a while. And that even though baby will eat ALL the time at first, we'll still find time to play. Nursing makes a great reading time. He did so well with KC when he was born I didn't really think he would be worried about this baby, but I guess he's big enough now to understand whats happening and that life will be different. But I'm glad he's talking to me about it and not just acting up. He's being really good. So I told him all about what an important job it is to be a big brother and about all the special things that he'll get to do when the baby comes. He liked that. I also went and got a bunch of new craft stuff and fun things for him to do with Grandma Sue when she comes down so that he hasn't something special and exciting. When I thought the baby was going to come friday I told him I thought we would get our baby soon and asked if he was excited. His response was "yes!! cause then I can have my new toys!!!" I guess if I was 5 new toys would be a lot more exciting than a baby lol. KC knows there's a baby in my tummy and it'll be fun to see what he thinks when baby is on the outside.
I can't wait to have all 3 of my boys together. I feel so incredibly blessed and overwhelmed by the responsibility I've been given to raise these boys to be good men, I'm so grateful for a good husband who is such a great example and leader for them. And who loves them so much and enjoys spending time with all of us. I don't know how I would do it without him. And I'm grateful to have the gospel to help guide me and for the knowledge that Heavenly Father is there to help me with this incredible calling in life. How could we raise these precious souls without His help.
And Grandma Sue we are SOO excited for you to be able to come and stay with us when Clayton arrives. I am so grateful for your willingness to take the time to come and help and we are all excited to be able to spend so much time with you. Thanks you!!!!!!

So hopefully our next post will be all about our new little boy when our family is completed with his arrival. We can't wait to show him to all of you! Wish us luck and send your prayers our way that everything will go well with his delivery!